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Weight: 261.5 lbs. Well, I’ve managed to get slightly unstuck, weight-wise anyway. Otherwise, I remain mired in tiredness and, possibly, depression. I’m not really sure what I feel, or even why, but know that I continue to feel off base in ways I can’t quite describe. Here I am a trained therapist with a Master’s Degree in Social Work, and I can’t even be sure what’s up and whether to call a doctor or an analyst!  July 5th, 2009 |  Categories: Diet and Nutrition, Doctor Visits, Emotional Support, Exercise (Post-Surgery), Hydration, Post-Surgery |  9 comments Weight: 265 lbs. How I managed to lose half a pound after yesterday’s gastronomical extravaganza is beyond me! Yet on other days I will eat hardly anything and gain weight. The mysteries of weight loss and of the pouch never cease to confound me, and I recently read a comical tweet (on Twitter) where a woman post-gastric bypass pondered how she could eat tons one day and not feel full, and then eat like one bite the next and be stuffed. Go figure…but I bet we’ve all been there! Weight: 270 lbs. Today being Sunday, and given the relatively big weight loss I’ve had so far this week (and today!), I am in a cheerful and grateful mood and want to post a little differently today to acknowledge some wonders and pleasures of this phase of my journey. First off, I woke up feeling blessed by the wonderful friendship I enjoyed with Debbie and Nancy last night, and the engaging and enjoyable dinner out that they, Tom, and I had together. I ordered a Spanish omelette (yes, for dinner!), and enjoyed it immensely. Full of beans and salsa and cheese and peppers, I felt that it was delicious and protein-packed. I had a few bites of the accompanying hash browns, and was very satisfied in every way. I appreciate how helpful and supportive Tom and all my friends are, and how we are able to talk or not talk about my surgery, weight, or diet, at any given time. Sometimes they feel fit to “lecture” me about what I might do differently, like exercise more or this way and not that or eat less or different stuff or whatever — but I take it all in stride as the intended helpfulness of people who care. Afterwards we shopped together at my favorite place: the Chrismas Tree Shop, which has all my favorite inexpensive finds I so love to buy. This includes many exotic flavors of decaf coffee that I have a hard time finding anwhere else. Weight: 278 lbs. Today was an uneventful day and will likely finish off equally boring. Our friend Debbie is due over for a dinner out, and tomorrow I will post on what and where I ate. But, for today, I thought I’d write something different, yet as important and relevant as it gets when your whole world has been changed in such big ways. Weight: 281 lbs. Well, I just got back from my first real support group meeting at the Bariatric Center, and it was very informative and helpful. Tom and I met some nice people, and I learned that others struggle in similar ways as I do with controlling portions and appetite. I especially enjoyed talking with a woman who had surgery the same day as I did, and who at the time I considered a maniac because while I was bed-ridden in pain and looking like I’d just given birth to quadruplets, she could be seen practically running the halls and looking fresh as a daisy. Well today, she continues to look healthy and perky, but acknowledged that like me, she can seem to eat nearly ANYTHING, and has difficulty knowing when to stop. Also like me, the doctor gave her carte blanche to eat whatever she could tolerate, and didn’t mention any particular limits on this. Like me, she also wishes to have lost more, and seems to wonder if she has been losing on par with others. May 26th, 2009 | Categories: Diet and Nutrition, Doctor Visits, Eating Out, Emotional Support, Post-Surgery | Leave a comment Weight: 281 lbs. So, yesterday Tom and I spent countless hours at the casino with our friends, Barb and Rick, as had been planned and looked forward to for some time. As is typical, gambling-wise, we won, and lost, and won, and lost, and lost. And lost. May 25th, 2009 | Categories: Barfing, Diet and Nutrition, Eating Out, Emotional Support, Post-Surgery | 2 comments Weight: 283 lbs. Yippee again that I managed to squeak down another half pound since yesterday! Also yippee that the dietician called me back today and was very nice and helpful. We discussed all aspects of my current diet, exercise (and sometimes lack thereof), weight and anxiety. She was very reassuring and positive, and felt that I am right on track both dietary and weight loss wise. She explained that the written guidelines that I had been given are generic, and can be adapted for individuals like myself who seem able to go through the stages quicker and tolerate foods well. She noted nothing wrong with my current intake, and said things like tender chicken and other proteins are ok if my pouch isn’t rebelling. May 20th, 2009 | Categories: Diet and Nutrition, Emotional Support, Exercise (Post-Surgery), Post-Surgery | Leave a comment Weight: 287.5 lbs. Oh my God - I’ve managed to gain half a pound! On bites of tuna salad, yogurt, and sips of soup?! Is this normal?! May 13th, 2009 | Categories: Diet and Nutrition, Doctor Visits, Emotional Support, Post-Surgery | 3 comments Crap and double crap. I’m still at 287 lbs. Plus Theresa, the visiting nurse, called this morning and asked what Dr. P. said about my lumpy, bleeding/oozing groshong. I told her that it had wept again all night and filled a bandage — but that I remained unconcerned as it only did this sometimes and I didn’t have a fever or any other signs of infection, so I hadn’t really f’d up. However, she beseeched me to call, so begrudgingly I did as she said and now I am scheduled to see Dr. P. tomorrow. Crud, just what I want — another useless consult about a minor issue so I can be (further) seen as a whiner or worry-wart. I don’t mean to be ungrateful for the oversight, but I have come to hate this process and just yearn for a sense of normalcy. Besides, he’ll probably just tell me to cover it with a bandage and get on my way, anyway. May 12th, 2009 | Categories: Complications, Doctor Visits, Emotional Support, Post-Surgery | Leave a comment At-home weight: 290 lbs. It’s so funny (or NOT, if you ask Tom). I’ve never dropped more things in my life as I have in the last week. I often drop the same item repeatedly, leaving Tom to sigh and follow after me picking up behind me as if I’m a toddler. |
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