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Weight: 214.4 lbs.
After all the hype associated with meeting with the bariatric assistant, I was in with her for like 3 minutes. She was very nice, but one of the most hurried, hyper doctors I have ever experienced. Had I not insited upon asking a question or two, I would have probably only seen her for like one minute.
In all fairness she did provide me handouts on reactive hypoglycemia and the importance of balancing proteins with good carbs., and another handout on protein rich food choices. She also gave me the names of a few primary doctors I may want to replace my current one with when I groused about his policies regarding appointments and scripts. And, she had time enough to tell me that she felt that I was right on track weight wise, as I have lost 50% of my excess weight and she was convinced that at this rate I will have lost at least 60% by the end of my first year. She said that bariatric success is measured by a loss of 60-65% of excess weight within the first year post gastric bypass. She predicted me to lose to 187 lbs. by year end, and although I said that this was still “fat”, she was more positive about all this than me.
Effusive, pleasant, optimistic, supportive, yet rushed!
But, I do feel somewhat more focused and balanced having met with her, and managed to dodge the bloodwork bullet. She did say she was gonna order a full panel and went to write a script for this, but when I mentioned that I also needed valium for this, she said it was ok to wait until my next appointment in 6 months because she didn’t know what dose of valium to write for and I couldn’t tell her off hand. She made a half hearted effort to rummage through my file to see, but was clearly too hurried to focus and gave up when I said that it was ok to wait and that I needed more than just one pill. She did say that she had no problem writing for me in the future and reassured me that she would not give me a hard time about this, as if she was aware of my past problems (and maybe was!)
So….when I return, I need to tell her how much I am usually prescribed and what dosage seems to work for me. And, we will see how I am doing on the inside, and if all the great supplements I am taking and all the food I am managing to eat, are keeping me healthy.
And, speaking of healthy; despite harrowing driving conditions and not getting out of work until nearly 7 pm last night, I lived to tell and to blog another day! WooHoo!
weight: 214.4 lbs.
I am not happy about todays weather as I am soon to head out for my bariatric follow-up appointment and I HATE driving when its so slippery. There are weather advisories posted for much of the day, and I have been a skittish driver ever since last Fall’s car accident and owning my first car in years that is not a 4 wheel drive. I hate my new car in winter, as last year I was repeatedly traumatized by its seemingly poor traction, and once had to stay with a friend who lives near my job as I was literally unable to drive it all the way home. Tom had to come pick me up!
Blechhh..why, oh why, don’t we live in the Bahamas or something?!
Anyway, I am also a tad nervous about the doctor appointment itself, and plan to ask about my appetite, diet, loss to date and seeming reactive hypoglycemia whereby I become a sleeping, drooling mess after some carby meals and sometimes, if I go too long without eating. I can fall asleep on a dime, feel wobbly and confused and dizzy, and believe that my blood sugar level is probaly running too low. I did take it about a week ago at home as a fasting level, and it was 76. If this is what I start out at, I can see where it may drop too low with poor or no food to raise it.
And speaking of food, we did eat at the Canadian casino yesterday, and I had baked chicken, shrimp, cauliflower, green beans and some tomato cabbage soup at the buffet.(We also came home $125 to the good!) It was all delicious and I was full without the need for dessert. My problem was home beforehand, when I broke into a remaining box of candy that I never took to work (as I haven’t been to work since last Thursday!), and ate 3 Ferrero Rochers. Ack!
Today, I may order a protein shake at the center, depending on what flavors they have and how quickly I get in and out. I must remember to leave enough time to slip and slide my way to work afterwards.
If you don’t hear from me for a while hereafter, perhaps I am imbedded in a pole somewhere, and I’ll hafta catch up with you later!
Weight: 233 lbs. (!!!)
So like I do every morning I wearily shuffled up and onto the scale for my morning weigh in, only to see it read: 233! Not that this number itself is skinny or anything, but that it represents probably the single largest loss in a day, since my surgery or soon there after. Now either I am dehydrating away, the bouts of stomach malaise that I had over the weekend have “paid off”, or I am actually back into the swing of losing. It has been such slow going for a while, plus I often regain a little of what I lose before losing it again “for real”, that I have come to expect little from the scale. I really hope that it isn’t just toying with me, and that after tonight’s casino buffet and some drinking (of water!), I won’t be right back up again tomorrow. Fingers crossed on this one!
Continue reading “Losing Weight and Winning Money!”
Weight: 241 lbs.
Hey, today was a very good day by all standards. First of all, I lost a damn pound, and maybe, just maybe, it’ll stay off this time. Of course, the fact that I ate at a buffet for lunch probably means that it won’t, but one can always hope! Plus, I didn’t eat that badly, and had no desserts whatsoever.
But, I am getting ahead of myself. As I had written yesterday, today being double-points Monday, Tom and I figured on heading to the casino to try and make out (NOT LIKE THAT – get your mind out of the gutter!). Ahem … anyway, we used only our freebies, and started by going across the border and redeeming for two free lunch buffets. While Tom ate his usual lasagna and potatoes, I had shrimp with a little cocktail sauce, a few pieces of beef out of the stew, a fillet of encrusted whitefish, some bites of eggplant something-or-other, a few bites of crab salad, and a little bit of the most heavenly cheese and potato soup. Mmmmm! But, as usual, I was quite stuffed afterwards, and dying of thirst too. But, I was “good,” and waited the requisite amount of time before drinking.
Continue reading “Yippee!”
Weight: Still 242 lbs.
I am exhilarated by how well my appointment went today, and can’t wait to tell everyone! First of all, Tom picked me up from work at 1:00 and we ate a quick lunch at guess where (again!), and I ate a few bowls of hearty, chickeny and vegetably soup, a salad, and a few bites of tuna sandwich, causing me to weigh 3.9 lbs more at the doctor’s than at home! (Well, my shoes and pants were probably part of the equation too).
Anyway, we arrived early, and the nice, “new” woman at the front desk handed me some forms to complete, stating that when I was done, “D” would take me back and review the forms with me. Ack! My immediate reaction was anxiety, and I whispered to Tom that it seemed as if we were finally going to meet “D.” Most of all, I worried how she would be, as I was sure that she was already aware that we were the dreaded couple that she has argued with in the past.
Continue reading “Dr. Jeykll and Mr. Hyde…?”
Weight: 242 lbs.
Despite the fact that I barely ate yesterday, I remain at a dead stall weight-wise. I realize that I also must not have gotten in either enough protein or water, and basically didn’t feel well enough either emotionally or physically to care about any of it.
Fortunately, today is a new day and, despite a throbbing and lingering headache, I am mostly feeling and doing better. Tom and I talked out our “issues” last night and readily moved on. I had wierd, funky, stress-related dreams all night that lingered as if real, all day, and could barely peel myself out of bed in the morning, but otherwise I am moving on in a better way.
Continue reading “I’m Off to See the Surgeon”
Weight: 244 lbs.
Tonight for dinner I ate a delicious portabella mushroom and garlic burger with tomato slices and mustard and a slice of cheese on a piece of whole wheat bread. Tom and I had experiemented and purchased a 10-pack of fresh Veggie Patch “burgers” at BJ’s for $10.29, and they appealed to me as they are listed as only 150 calories each with 15 grams of protein. Although a little carby (10 grams), they seem healthier and less fattening even than the very low fat hamburger meat we had purchased the other day. Plus, they turned out to be tasty enough that even picky Tom liked them!
Continue reading “Urpee and Owie!”
Weight: 244.5 lbs.
What a dumb-head, idiot, dork-brain I am! Last night after I posted, I set about gathering my bloodwork orders and other materials to take with me to today’s blood draw at Quest. When searching for my precious two Valium to take with me, instead I found the scripts that the surgeon and my primary had written on 7/13 and 7/14/09 respectively. In a panic, Tom and I drove to the nearest Walgreen’s to see if they could be filled, only to find that they last for only 30 days and had literally just expired! After all I had gone through to get them! After all my angst about them! Even though I am one of the most meticulous and organized people I know. What a numb-nut! I have to wonder if some element of denial or sabotage was at hand at an unconscious level or something, as it is truly unthinkable that I dropped the ball on this. God, I am a freakin’ moron, and this time it has nothing to do with my diet!
Continue reading “I AM a Freakin’ Moron!”
Weight: 248 lbs.
My weight is now perpetually higher than it was early last week, and I can’t seem to get unstuck despite returning to better eating since vacation ended. I guess that it will take longer before I drop back down. Last week was the first week that I gained since my surgery, and now this has to be subtracted from the week’s before losses by my math. Then again, exactly what did I expect!?
Continue reading “A Mid-Summer Night’s Dream”
Weight: 248 lbs.
Sally passed away this afternoon. I’d like to think that her loved ones will find solace in knowing that she is now at peace, but I know that, more than likely, this will just mean another stage in their sad journey.
She remained at home, surrounded by family and plenty of love and support. I am awaiting news as to the arrangements, with nothing to do but mourn and call our mutual friends with the news. Janet, understandably, is preoccupied with the tasks at hand, and has asked for time before seeking company or favors from any friends, including me.
Continue reading “Status Report”
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