Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 183.7 lbs.

How is it that my vacation is nearly over already?! I had so many lofty ideas and plans for what I would accomplish in this week, and only got a miniscule amount of things accomplished. We did manage to have a few minutes of decent weather yesterday that allowed Tom and I to clean out the shed and put away the snowblower. And set up some chairs and such in the yard. This was probably our greatest feat this week. Otherwise, we did play some, ate out more than usual (including yesterday when we stopped at “Jim’s” after attempting to participate in a Cheektowage storage locker sale). And I think that may be about it, other than perhaps a little pricing of some garage sale stuff.

Here’s what I had hoped to do:

1)Catch up on reading, including some books I have bought and have been dying to dig into. For like years now.

2)Clean, organize, rearrange the house. Maybe I did a wee bit of this, but nothing to write home about. Besides, even if I had, it would need it again by now anyway.

3)Plan out and begin to tackle some of our many summer plans. Other than dabbling a tiny bit in the garage sale stuff, I hardly did any of this. We still have not gotten our heads fully around the May 28th memorial for Tom’s mother in which upwards of 50 people are coming over after mass. Nor have we yet ordered our airline tix for our August trip to Iowa. Etc, etc. I have begun the process of making lists and checking them twice, but haven’t DONE a darn thing on any of them.

4)Develop and think forward about a diet and exercise plan. Not. This may as well read: “Create world peace.” or “Solve global warming.”

5)Take more and better pics for the send off of this site, and begin to think of what I must yet say before I bid “adieu”. Instead, I have barely managed to find time or wherewithall to write my usual drivel.

6)Visit Kris at the psychiatric center. We opted not to even do this today and this will be probably the first major holiday that we have skipped. I did call and inquire as to how she is doing, but combined with the staff’s bleak response and the last visit in which she was mute and didn’t engage one iota with us, we have decided to leave her be. It is hard to know what is the best thing to do in a situation like this, as any benefit that our visits might have on her are no longer apparent, and we now even worry that they are contraindicated.

What we will do today is join my cousins Kenny, Karen and Jimmy for Easter dinner. We are bringing the “free” ham we got from the casino, and our friend Rose (not necessarily in that order!) It promises to be a good time with plenty of warm feelings and EATS. So what else is new!?

And then tomorrow, I head back to the dreaded work for what promises to be a marathon of catching up. I had so hoped to come back much more ready and refreshed than I fear I won’t be…but then again, how realistic is this?

But hey, at least I no longer believe that time off will change my life and the course of my mental and weight issues. Ha!! And I am stymied as to whether this is a good or a bad realization!