Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 192.2 lbs.

What a nice, relaxing, long weekend this feels like. And as I am off today too, it will be stretched out for one more day before 3 long work days, and then a whole week of vacation. Yippee!

I am still rather toasty from last weeks pool encounter, and then added to my burn yesterday when I couldn’t think of anything I wanted to do more than cook myself again. And then today, we have plans to spend time at Carol’s house and in her real pool…but as I am already so burnt and crispy, I now probably need to be fully dressed for the occassion. My shoulder’s are so crunchy they hurt, so I had at least better wear a tee shirt. Surprisingly, I didn’t gain and bloat (yet?) as badly as before, although I am thinking that this may be as I didn’t also eat the higher sodium foods that I combined with sunbathing, last weekend.

Whatever… I am not complaining and am doing this with my eyes wide open and aware of the possible consequences. And at least I may get all my burning over with before we spend a week on the lake. I should be sufficiently blackened by then, for good or bad.

As you can probably tell, we are already in semi-vacation mode, and when not packing and planning for and thinking about our trip, we are starting early on living the mentality. Unfortunately, this also includes eating in a more relaxed manner. We have started stocking up on foods we think will feed us and our company for a week there, and these include munchies like pretzels and chips and nuts and granola. Basically, stuff we usually only buy or have around with company in mind…and now are overflowing with. We do plan to also shop at the Westfield Farmer’s Market when we arrive, and stock up on veggies and fruits and more wholesome and fresh things.  

But, admittedly, this mentality has relaxed my eating standards, and I do find myself munching more and having a lazy, summer like attitude about food already and we haven’t even left yet. It is sort of a picnic mentality, where anything goes, and it just seems so normal and healthy to live on BBQ and all the fixin’s. Although in reality, it isn’t, of course, and this type of thinking is what has gotten me into trouble in the first place. On the other hand, I am sure that I do not have the will to tighten up now, and know that I will go with this flow until we are back to “normal” after cottage week, at least. Not an excuse, not good, not right, but honest. How any one else does differently is beyond me, as I know that I don’t have the will power to be sensible and regimented all the time, but especially on vacation and during the lazy days of summer.

(Or sometimes winter, spring, and fall too. But thats another entry and story!)

Just the same, I am watching that I don’t go too crazy or gain excessively, and for now, am riding it out and feeling ok as and where I am. And if I can manage this at least, while enjoying life and all it has to offer as immensely as I now am, I am not motivated to change things up just yet or to pull the rug out from under myself.

I guess that I am realizing that contentment can come in many forms and shapes and sizes….

And that at least for now, I am happy and balanced and ok where and how I am. Water and vacation and sunshine will do this to me too, I suppose.

And its hard to argue with that!