Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 192.1 lbs.

I am back to losing weight, and feel excited about this as it has been a long time since I have gone down in earnest. If you can call some ounces, earnest. But, its a start, and I feel good about my choices lately. Hormones do definitely play a big role in everything for me, and it is amazing how much more in balance appetite and cravings wise, I am just after my period compared to before. I hope to ride this wave for a bit, as for now, I don’t feel like the munching lunatic I can become at certain other times in my cycle.

I am feeling rather stressed by my job however, and am amazed at the amount of work before me. I worked nearly 10 hours yesterday, and got so much further behind that I have to work that many more today just to catch back up. I have several reports to write, month end work to correct and statistics to tally, yesterdays progress notes to do yet, a meeting with my supervisor, goals to template, charts to read and calls to make. I also manage the waiting list for all the therapists, and unfortunately we now have many people waiting to be seen and not enough openings to schedule people in. I just had to take two more clients yesterday despite getting 4 new ones in the last two weeks, and in addition to all the administrative responsibilities I am now taking on, I have over 30 clients on my caseload. The degree of responsibility, scrupulousness, attention to detail, minutae and paperwork all this entails is maddening.

I must head out soon to get a jump start on everything if I hope to be “clean” for the long weekend, but am weary from the long week and blood loss. Not to mention that I have had trouble sleeping the last few nights due to stress, hormones, and Tom waking me ’cause he’s had issues. Thank god we have barely any plans this weekend, as I plan to have a breakdown. I actually have been thinking about blowing up the inflatable kiddie pool I won at a chinese auction, and sitting in it like an idiot in the backyard, with a good book and a drink. It’s gonna be in the 90’s this weekend, and this just sounds like heavenly hedonism to me!  I pity anyone who may look between the backyard fence slats and spot such a thing however, as I am sure that this will look quite embarassingly dorky!

But…I am getting ahead of myself. I’ve gotta run and survive today first…!  Bye!