Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 192.8 lbs.

My first gift was one of loss, and is a two fold present. Since I unexpectedly got the gift of my period on my birthday, it was coupled with the gift of shedding some bloat and weight gain from recent days. Although I still feel porky and puffy, I think this present explains some of how I have been doing and feeling for the last few days. You’d think I’d see it coming a mile away by now, but I continue to be surprised month after month. At this rate, Tom could probably predict it sooner, especially as my mood gets quite foul in the days proceeding it. But then again, I’m not always sweetness and joy anyway, so perhaps its hard to tell the difference. Kind of like if Tom got Alzheimers…LOL!

In better gift news, I decided to pamper myself after work yesterday and had a grand time tending to my long neglected body and head. I got out of work at 3:00 and called Tom to see if he wanted me to pick him up while enroute to the grocery store and Supercuts. We scooted to the hair joint, and on the spur, I decided to have them exfoliate my brows in addition to scalping me. I am now quite shorn, and my Arab terrorist look is nearly gone. For the first time in ages, I don’t have a uni-brow, and my head hair is no longer as I described it yesterday. Instead, I am back to looking balding and patchy. Not quite the look I was going for, but I still have thin and sparse hair underneath the frizz head I had been sporting.

But even better, while waiting as instructed for my appointment, I went next door to TJ Maxx to shop for a bit, and ended up spontaneously buying myself two new pairs of slacks. These are the first real, new, nice clothes I think that I have gotten myself in like a hundred pounds, and I have been fretting trying to dress in old baggy stuff every morning, so long overdue. I still hate clothes shopping, but enjoyed this junket a little more than most as they had a nice selection, AND I am now able to look in the “teens” and not “twenties” for sizes.

I wasn’t exactly sure what size I even now wear, and too rushed to try things on. So I guessed at a pair of dark and beige pants, and tried them on at home. They are both 18’s. And they were too big!! Not huge and they can fit, but especially considering my current bloat oversized enough that I believe I will outgrow them altogether in a minute, and perhaps can trade down for a size 16 right now! I am shocked at this as I haven’t lost weight really in ages, and as 16 was my marrrige size and if I am truly at it now, this is one of my goals and milestones!

And then,to top off this fine day,  Zoe took us out for my souvlaki  birthday dinner, approved my new attire as fashinable as she is much more stylish than I will ever be, indulged me with her presence and warmed me with her sentiments.

So…my birthday did turn out wonderful after all, and I celebrated the right things this time. Womanhood, health and a newly trimmer physique, freindship and LIFE! Maybe there is hope that I will get things right this year, after all!