Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 192.9 lbs.

I remain on track despite temptations around every corner. Although admittedly I deviated from an all shake day, I still was good. I did have some strawberries with my shake in the evening, and some egg early in the day, but overall stayed somewhat true to at least a higher protein, lower calorie mentality that was a deviation from a pouch test, but sensible nonetheless.

I don’t believe I will do the full pouch test, but continue like above and see where it takes me. I feel satisfied with my choices and how I feel, and have lost some weight and bloat. I also feel as if my cravings have gotten back under better control, as has my thinking. Which can’t be underestimated as the most important element of success (or failure!)

In non dietary news, yesterdays Mass for Debbie’s mother was a somber affair, and it left me weary and sobered all day. The priest did a great job though, and it was heartening to see such a good turnout both at the wake and at the church. I am glad to have some free time as this week progresses to check back in with Debbie and perhaps plan a get together for support and comfort.

In other sad news, another friend’s father fell yesterday and was not found for several hours, and once he was, he needed the ER. Zoe spent the day there with him, and called early this morning to tell me that as a result of the injuries from his fall and being left on the floor so long, he is now in organ failure, has aspiration pneumonia from vomiting while prone, and is on a ventilator. This from a previously healthy (albeit elderly) man who is living in a facility for the supposed oversight they should provide. This is shocking and horrific news, and neither my friend or I can even absorb all this at this time. Its all just too unthinkable, especially given all the tragedy of recent times, and for now, I’m refusing to think the unimaginable, and plan to keep optimistic and wait for good news, for a change.

Please remain hopeful with me!