Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 193.1 lbs.

Wow, my body must have been dying to lose weight or something given how fast I went down since yesterday! I assume that much of this is water weight, but if even so, this shows how I had been retaining on all the crap I had been eating.

So, how did I do it? Well, I stuck with my strawberry shakes all day, despite a last minute temptation to go to dinner. Dorothy, a friend from Rochester, NY, called at 3:30 yesterday to say that she was leaving work early to come to Debbie’s mother’s wake, and wondered if we’d like to do dinner first. Eeeep! I actually said that I couldn’t eat, but would be glad to do coffee out with her instead as long as she didn’t mind. I was not thrilled about this, especially as I WAS starving, but resigned myself to this plan. However, it took her longer to get in than she thought and I was anxious that we’d be “late” to the wake, so we all quickly decided to eat at our house instead, and she was actually quite content munching on leftover cheese and crackers, grapes and chips and other stuff that didn’t have to be cooked and was edible in a pinch. Tom heated up leftover hotdogs for himself, and I slurped another shake and then had some coffee.

And, so far, so good! I am not certain if I will have an all shake day, but definitely will keep it soft and light. So far, I am not hungry in the least, and feel that I may have already gotten myself into a better swing of things. Seeing the scale go down alone is a big morale boost.

Now this morning I am taking work off to attend the memorial for Mrs. G., but we have decided against doing the brunch afterwards. Mostly as this cuts into work time too much, but also for obvious dietary reasons. Debbie’s father invited us once again last night so I do feel a little badly for keeping it short today, but I do believe that she is ok with it, and knows that we are there for her when it matters most in the long haul.

Well, I am also off to work out this morning, and best sign off here if I hope to fit everything in before Tom returns to pick me up. And I am still on a mission to prove to myself that I CAN do this, and that just as in any other aspect of life, losing a battle or suffering a set back, does not have to mean one cannot rise from the ashes and go on to win the war!