Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 196.4 lbs.

I am bloated, tired, misearable and crampy this morning. And I have gained alot since yesterday, some of which is probably due to munchy hedonism, and some due to the bloat I can feel has overtaken me.

Whatever. I feel like crap!

I have a very long day scheduled at work today, and pity my clients who are unsuspectingly scheduled to see me for caring and guidance. Is “leave me alone!” a therapeutic and supportive statement?! I didn’t think so either.

Tom said he’d be back from work in..”.a week or so”, when he left this morning.  I don’t blame him.

The only good thing that may come of this is that the munchies tend to subside, and ultimately perhaps there is hope for me to resume some semblance of normalized eating habits. Not the arbitrary crap I have been eating, excessively and whenever. Damn those leftovers! And the big “P.”

Tonight was supposed to be a staff meeting and training, but mercifully, it was cancelled yesterday as none of our male staff ended up able to make it. If I didn’t feel so pukey, I’d be doing the jig. I already have to work a little into the evening, but if I had to work til like 8:00, I think I would have killed myself.

So…you wanna come see me today…?! I’ve got some great advice for you and everything….

Echhhhhhh!