Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 196.0 lbs.

Today I reversed the order of things, and worked out before I posted here. I may continue to do this, as first off it gets my workout done, and secondly, it gets blood flowing to my brain so there is hope of me sounding less like a freshly awoken blathering idiot here. Although you may dispute the latter….

In any case, I practically fell asleep on the treadmill, actually having closed my eyes while walking briskly, and found myself drifting off. Perhaps I should do coffee, then workout, then post here. Although I do believe that part of why I was so tired this morning is because I haven’t worked out in some time now, and feel all kinked up and tired and stiff as a result. I’d like to say that I now feel energetic and unkinked, but that would unfortunately be a stretch. I will say that I am approaching “human” however.

I am going to try to work out longer and harder, and no longer have excuses of time constraints and what not, as I had before. I still feel like suddenly I have so much more time now that the garage sale is over, and I am not perpetually searching out items from the house’s nooks and crannies, pricing, organizing and fussing to this end. Suddenly I feel as if my time is my own, and I can do other things with it. I expect that I’ll feel even more of this once this Saturday’s sale is also over, and the last of our leftovers have been carted off for it. Although I am admittedly also a little melancholy about it, and having just won a few baskets at the recent auction we went to, I now wonder what to do with the stuff I don’t want, as before I would have just put it out for sale. I guess I’ll donate it to another auction or throw it with the rest of the stuff for the Ten Lives sale this weekend. But its not quite the same…. I can see how stuff can re-accumulate real quick this way!

As to other plans and commitments, I am feeling ready to try and lose weight again. I have been holding steady for some time, and attribute this to some laxity on my part. I have been content at this weight, despite being miles from thin, and I need to fight my complacency and shake myself up more. Today I do feel some good energy to this effect, and the inner quiet that comes from the start of a new week with less stuff to distract me, in it.

Yesterday we had a disparaging casino visit, where we just weren’t feeling the “love”, and decided to come home earlier than we had originally figured on. Not only that, but it was so packed for mother’s day, that we were unable to get anywhere near the buffet, and ended up eating in their diner instead. This happened to us the last time or two that we went as well, and although better in some ways for my diet, we felt cheated out of something we enjoy and consider a special part of our gambling experience. Although I was ok where we did go, I think that Tom was most disappointed. I ordered the French Onion Soup and half a sandwich platter, which also came with a small salad of arugula, I believe. I ate the albacore tuna out of the bun, half the soup, and some of the salad (that also had bacon and egg and tomatoes in it). I expect that this was all less and perhaps better food than what I would have had at the buffet.

The other downer at the casino, was the number of smokers that contaminated the whole place, and made breathing difficult. We hate when it is crowded this way and smoke fills the air, and just didn’t have much fun. Losing what we brought didn’t help any either! So much for our attempt to relax and enjoy, and distract ourselves from mother’s day. Also at the casino, I’ve never seen so many women in wheelchairs and in walkers in my life! Clearly many children thought of this as the perfect place to take mom yesterday!

So, today, with that all behind us, we are off to experiment with a new week and make the best of it. Tom too has expressed a desire to get his bad diet under better control, and although I’ve heard this before, I think he may be more serious this time. Maybe we can both be good together, and head into summer even better than ever!

Not only does that rhyme, but it sure sounds good to me!