Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 197.7 lbs.

I don’t think that I slept a wink last night. It is just after 4:30 a.m. and my skin is crawling as I write this. I finally threw in the towel on trying to sleep, after buzzing all night. Zoe was here past dark, and we helped her every step of the way with unloading, organizing, pricing, fussing. The trailer took about an hour or two to fold up, hitch and remove, but Dennis and the new owner mostly did this.

Anyway, by the time Zoe finally left after we couldn’t even see anymore to work outside, Debbie showed up with nearly a dozen bagels from Panera Bread, as she had won a batch of bagels a month (plus schmears!) for a year at a Chinese Auction a few months ago, and didn’t want to waste this month’s freebies. She thought (correctly) that “we” could enjoy them during the garage sale, so now we have some breakfast stuff for our “guests”. They were to have been gotten and  eaten (by everyone but me) at Pete’s Sunday brunch last weekend, but that had been cancelled.

Anyway, after Debbie left, I talked until nearly 10:00 to my cousin last night, about everything garage sale, life and etc. By the time we hung up, I was that much more overstimulated. And somewhere in the mix, I did catch up with Janet who I’ve been worried about, and learned of how she is faring so far, given some health issues.

I can’t remember dinner, but I think I scarfed up some leftover shrimp cocktail before Zoe arrived minutes after I got home.

I did eat crap at work both before and after my Social Skills Group, however. I was drawn to the popcorn and Dorito snacks, and munched away as I set them up and as I did my paperwork into the early evening. Not an excuse perhaps, but yesterday was a uniquely stressful and fast paced day at work, and I was freaked for much of it. I was walking in the front sliding doors when the “big boss” waylaid me, and hushedly escorted me into a private area to say that “we are being audited!”. The State (DDSO) had shown up unexpectedly, and were hunkered down in the counseling suite as we spoke, reviewing charts and such!  And one of my clients charts had been requested! Eeep!

Long story short, after tiptoeing around and trying to look professional and competent  in their intimidating presence, they left rather early, and I heard that we passed with flying colors! But, what stress in between!

Needless to say, everything from this, threats of rain, the shear task of doing, and the many details to recall, are driving me to the brink here. Last night in bed, and perhaps partly a result of the half and half coffee I drank liberally while working outside, my night went like this:   Wide awake. Overstimulated. I MUST sleep…god only knows I won’t be getting any sleep the next few days. C’mon, sleep already!!  I wonder if I made a sign for the (fill in the blank). What if it rains?! Scratch, cough, scratch. Hmmm..maybe I should bring up the (fill in blank) and sell it too. Oh, I forgot to follow up with (fill in blank)…I wonder if they are coming.  Scratch. Layout driveway in my head. I wonder what stuff (so and so) is bringing. Maybe I should buy Nancy’s table. Oh, I forgot to (fill in blank). I hope its not too hard to set the canopies up. What time did Marlene say that she was coming over. Turn, scratch, turn. Crap, it’s after midnnight. I’m gonna be worthless for my poor clients tomorrow. Must sleep!! Oh, I’ve got to remember to write that I can’t blog from Friday to Sunday so people on NM don’t wonder what’s become of me. Maybe I’ll die of sleep deprivation and never write again…! What time should I set the alarm for on Friday? What time does it get light, anyway. Scratch. Geez, my hips hurt. I hope we have enough (fill in the blank) for everyone. Oh, that reminds me! Tom has to get all the chairs out of the shed so people have something to sit on! I hope there’s enough time tomorrow to get everything done. Ack, now its 3:30!! Did I even sleep…?! Shit, I may as well get up!!!

And I am the counselor!?

Let’s hope for a saner (and skinnier) me on Monday! “See” you all then!