Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 198.8 lbs.

Well. it’s not something I am particularily proud of, but it was quite an accomplishment.

I managed to watch nearly every friggin’ show I had left on the DVR, albeit some on fast forward and others, percursorily, before throwing in the towel and erasing them before they ended. Verizon is due here in an hour or two, and all I have left to watch is last night’s episode of Ruby. I would have stayed up to watch it in real time, but after a day of nearly nothing else but being glued to the set (oh, and 4 loads of laundry and several telephone calls), I couldn’t stand another episode of anything or another minute of watching anything. I think this has cured me of my tv addiction, and I may never watch another thing! If only eating worked like this….

…Oh wait, it does. You know…pig out today and grow so sick of food afterwards, that you vow never to eat again. And believe that you actually mean it, until breakfast the next day. When you eat even more.

Although in all seriousness, after doing more sitting these last few days than I have all year, I am hankering to expend some energy, including getting back into my workout which I have slacked off on for the last few days. I am fortunate that my period coincided with my need to stay in and do the DVR thing, so at least now I have killed off my need to be slovenly in all ways, in one fall swoop.

And, hopefully, I am just as done being lax on myself diet-wise. I did have the requisite bowl o’ popcorn last night, and ate rather wierdly the rest of the day. I was in nibble mode, no doubt because of the tv thing, and didn’t actually eat any real meals at all, except for the 2 eggs I had at breakfast. Otherwise, my diet consisted entirely of munchable things, like nuts, the last of the low fat chips Janet had brought over on Friday night, a shake (as I was aware that I was woefully low on protein), a hot dog with no bun, and some olives. I can’t for the life of me recall what else I ate, but think that if this is all, I was even more pathetic in getting in protein and nutrients than I even thought. But at least the calorie count wasn’t terribly high, either.

And, as I am sick of myself and eating so snarkily, I do feel more ready to re-embrace better habits…once I have shopped for something other than crap to eat. Since I never got out of my pjs yesterday, clearly I never shopped either, nor had I this week at all for staples or any meanigful food items. There is some canned and frozen stuff we can rely on in a pinch of course, but for anything fresh or meat like, this will require me to actually untether myself from the house and tv, and re-enter the real world. Which after this weekend of being holed up in the living room, basement or garage, I can’t wait to do.

Once the Verizon guys come and go, that is.  And after Zoe and Dennis come later today to set their huge tent up in our driveway in anticipation of the garage sale and all the stuff they need to store in it.

Ah, to be free of one obsession just in time to prepare for another.

If only I could get so single minded and excited about exercise…!