Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 211 lbs.(!)

God I need to do this pouch test! Look how my weight went up since yesterday! I can’t be treusted around carbs anymore, and yesterday I had a relatively carby and late dinner that threw everything off. I had a chicken cutlet and a half  and a salad for dinner, and then 2 bowls of popcorn (with very hot sauce, ouch!) for snack. I have been craving such a bad, slider food, and figured on eating my fill before doing the pouch test today. This is a very bad mentality, but knowing myself, just what I feared, and figured on.

Also yesterday was the a.m. brunch, and I had too much of everything - omelet, sausage, toast with ff spreads, even some grapes. I didn’t eat any of the danish I made for others….UNTIL the afternoon when the leftovers called to me. Yak - usually I am good about ignoring such blatantly bad things, but I seriously believe that since I was thinking that I could wash away my sins today, that I may as well yesterday. This is a very bad thought processes, conscious enough so that I am in touch with it, yet hard to stop. Counselor heal thyself, indeed!

So, the morale is about how badly I need to do this “test” right and reset myself and learn from it. I did spend a significant amount of time reading everything I could on it, starting here under “pouch test”, and moving on to obesityhelp and other sites. I believe that I am decently psyched and ready, and have 2 flavors of shakes out and ready to blenderize at a moments notice. I expect that today won’t be as challenging as tomorrow, when I not only return to work, but work into the evening, and have many clients back to back, which makes slurping or blenderizing anything a difficult prosepect. But, I will figure something out, perhaps using a thermos for prebelnderized stuff, if this isn’t too gross, as Debra suggests.

Then, on Wednesday, I am figuring that I can eat pouches of tuna and such at my desk quite quickly…and etc. for the remaining days. Any additional suggestions are welcome here. I need “finger” type foods that require minimal “opening”, preparing, or fuss. And, can be kept fresh and cool in an insulated bag, or small cooler.

I also hope to kick up my workouts a notch, well, today, at least.

So, I do feel quite ready for the challenge ahead, and my mouth is already watering for a shake.

It should be interesting to see if I feel the same tomorrow….