Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 209.3 lbs.

We had such a fun time with our friends yesterday  that I feel as if I have managed to clean my palate of the bad taste from work, and am less stressed and grumpy today as a result. However, fun comes with a price, and this included what we lost at both Bingo and slots, and that although I haven’t yet registered a weight gain from eating out at Old Country Buffet, their food is still floating around in me somewhere.  (I am actually quite surprised that I lost, instead!)Although I didn’t stray too horribly, it was still more food than usual, and my relatively healthy meal of fish and steak, was followed up with some ice cream, and a little cappuchino. Both are are huge weakness of mine, and I couldn’t resist the temptation of trying some cappuchino from their newly installed machine that dispenses various flavors. I may as well have sucked on a sugar cube!

And, in addition to this, I was the first to tear in to Rick’s bag o’ popcorn at Slots, eating it as if I hadn’t just had dinner an hour earlier. Bingo gives me the munchies I guess - you know, all the anticipation and excitement and frenzy that it can be. Not that any of my cards were ever even remotely close to winning!

In good news for our friends though, Barb did win, although she had to split her $75 jackpot with another winner. We were all excited and happy for her, and this must have truly been beginners luck as they haven’t been to bingo in years, and never before to Canadian bingo.

In other news, we are talking about going to the clothing swap and open house that our bariatric center is having in two weekends from now. It would be fun to go together with them, and they are open to the public so Barb and Rick would be welcome to participate. I look forward to the opportunity to possibly trade some grandma clothes for those more in keeping with my new size and style, and just seeing whatever else the center has to offer as they are supposedly under new management now. I am wondering if they have replaced any of the staff I have had troubles with ,  and am secretly hoping so. The posting said that they did have new people on board, and I am eager to see what they are like.

Well, soon our other friends are due over for brunch. The menu will consist of bacon, eggs with all the fixin’s, sausages, bagels that Debbie is bringing, various spreads, and danish we must bake first. I plan to steer clear of at least the latter, and hopefully, the bagels too. I remain hopeful that tomorrow’s pouch test beginnings will be just what the doctor ordered, and it will set me back on track. I will have to see that I have everything I need to be successful, so later today, I will look into all this more and shop if I must.

So, today is the last day of “normal” eating for a bit, and hopefully my awareness of this won’t get me eating more as I did before surgery when I felt the immenence of surgery and the end of eating as I then knew it. This was a terrible design flaw, and since I was not amongst the many who were expected to diet and lose beforehand, I went hog wild right up until the day they cut me open. I went into this with all the wrong ideas and attitudes, and would like to say that I have learned something about both myself and the dangers of this mentality, by now. Except, I’m not really convinced that I have.

So…both the rest of today and this week should be especially interesting, and even I look forward to seeing where this all takes me. Unfortunately, fast forwarding is not allowed, and I guess I have no choice but to take it all day by day and minute by minute, and do my best to follow all the “rules” as I think I know them.

…and we all know how good I am at that!  NOT!