Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 210.8 lbs.

When I awoke early having to pee like a race horse, I considered this a good sign that I HAD drunk more yesterday and should be back in the losing saddle today.  And I am right. Debra too speculated in the comments section that my weight gain likely related to my carbier diet a day or two ago, and that my increased thirst was also a symptom of this and of the water retention associated with it, and that it is best to try and flush my cells out now to remedy it. And get back to lower carb. eating…and stay there!

Also, after a talk with Barb about my work snack of banana, I have finally concluded, once and for all, that indeed these must be too high in sugar for me, and a likely trigger for the hypoglycemic episode I suffered from. Some days I have felt like WITHOUT a banana or something sweetish, that I will perish at my desk from exhaustion. But, as Barb pointed out, in the absence of a protein to counteract the sugar, a banana is a bad idea to revive me past its initial insulin rush, and I am likely setting myself up to rebound into too low of sugar soon after.

So, like yesterday, I am back to cheese sticks and Atkins type bars for work “meals.” I maintained my energy consistently yesterday trying this already, so I can also see for myself that these work better.

So, yesterday I made an overall more diligent effort to banish more carbs., and had a diet that was also probably higher in protein as a result. Which could also have contributed to my peeing frenzy this morning, if I recall my Atkins lessons about such matters.

Here’s what I ate yesterday: A leftover piece of tuna on low carb whole wheat, for breakfast. This equalled about 3 or 4 bites as it was just a half of a half, or less. Two cheese sticks during the work day (which I have found doen’t really need refrigeration at all, as they are just cheese and can last several hours it seems). An Atkins bar, and later a handful of cashews while wrapping up my paperwork.

For dinner, I cooked myself chicken liver and onions…mmmm, mmmm! And ate the night befores leftover steamed cauliflower with it. And later, some unsalted peanuts in the shell and an orange. I realize that the orange isn’t low carb, but it was the last item on my list, and as of now, I don’t think that I am meant to nor do I intend to eliminate ALL carbs. I am still a little confused about a million conflicting messages that I have gotten and continue to hear and see about this, and until and unless I am compelled to give up ALL fruit and other hearty and healthy items in this category, I won’t do it. But, I will limit and be mindful of what and when I eat them, as I believe that I was yesterday moreso than earlier this week. I guess that I’ll have to see how I fare like this, and keep my ears and eyes open for info. and data along this line.

Now, having said all this, I realize that I am coming up on a weekend of great challenges and temptations. Tom and I are heading about 2 hours south to his nephew’s town of Jamestown NY for his Saturday night reception. His wife -to -be called in the menu to our answering machine yesterday, and I am screwed! It consists of all the usual yummies people may have at such a fancy affair, and then some! I don’t recall every item, but suffice to say it will be begging me to cheat and at least taste it all.

Then, we head over to the nearby Alleghany Casino where we are staying that night and the next, and meeting (I hope!) my Rochester, NY girlfriend and her sister to take them to ther casino buffet for brunch for my girlfriends birthday that happens to fall on this day. This plan kind of fell in our laps, as she and I happened to be talking a few weeks ago, when she said that she was planning to spend her birthday weekend in Alleghany anyway, as her sister lives nearby and they had planned an outing to the casino!

Anyway, my point is that it’s both a wedding, long weekend, “vacation”, Valentines day, and a hedonistic getaway living above a buffet and other gourmet, casino restaurants. Lets just hope I don’t come back weighing 500 lbs.!

And, on that happy note, I am off to work out and eat breakfast etc. before work…and at least for today, know that I will remain on track. I suppose like a member of AA or something, I best take just a day, and perhaps an hour at a time, try my best to use what I am learning, and comiit to the healthiest lifestyle changes that I am consistently able to.

 Amen!