Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 213.8 lbs.

I ate some peanuts in the shell last night in front of the tv, after returning late from a long day of work. Before this, Tom made us on of those pre-packaged meals with chicken, veggies and some seminola noodles (high fiber, 12 grams protein per serving, under 250 cals and very little fat, plus inexpensive at Aldis and VERY tasty!) In any event, the combined fiber content or perhaps bulk of such evening indulgences, meant that this morning I had no trouble ridding myself of the last 27 meals I’ve eaten! You’d think I’d be down to goal weight after this one! I must have been on the upswing again weight wise, ’cause I had figured I might otherwise post a record loss this morning. Oh well, at least I get to stay in the 13’s.

I work late again tonight and even later still tomorrow night due to our staff meeting/pot luck. I already know the “menu”, and am somewhat concerned as I am often ravenous and stressed at work, especially as I rarely get a minute to eat a bite during the day there. There will be pizza, nuts, cheese and crackers, chips and candy. I should be contributing a healthy and filling item, but instead am using this as the perfect chance to unload the final Christmas no no’s…the candy and the coated nuts platters. Perhaps a slice or two of pizza, which I do eat on occassion anyway, will do. Not great, but still “better” than olden days.

At this time, I am extrememly grateful for my job which I both enjoy and am good at. I have been there for nearly 15 years, and am also happy to have wonderful co-workers who are like friends. Other than the instability of the job market and the fact that we are an insurance (medicaid, medicare etc.) driven site which means that we can easily be decimated by cut backs and are always threatened by this and by audits, I feel comfortable and confident in my position. However, I currently feel very concerned for not one or two but three of my best friends who are in very bad, stressful, threatened or unstable job situations and are therefore having to look for alternatives. I wish that I had a company or could start up some kind of business that we could all work at together, and actually lay awake in bed last night trying to be creative with this concept. If only we all had start up money and a solid idea, what a great team we would be working together doing…well, I don’t really know what yet, but something! I plan to buy a mega millions lottery ticket for seed money, so wish me luck!

Well, and speaking of work, I’d better go get ready for mine. I have a million clients scheduled today and some leftover sticky situations from yesterday to tend to. I will bring a cheese stick, a protein bar and some fruit as I usually do in hopes of actually eating them, and hopefully won’t just bring it all back home again tonight. I’d better also go eat a nice breakfast in case then, too!