Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 216.2 lbs.

Well, I’m ever so slowly creeping back down in weight, although at this rate I won’t even get back to where I was for another bit. On the other hand, people have gained or stalled for worse reasons, and I am grateful that I at least “enjoyed” myself in the process!

Last night, Tom and I ate out, which is now becoming a shocking rarity for us given that we used to eat nearly every meal elsewhere other than home. Now, other than what the casino provides about once a week, or on special occassions, we generally eat at home. But, yesterday after work, I had a hankering to run errands and then enjoy the fact that I am off for 5 more days and wish to celebrate, so we gathered up a gift certificate I had won at an auction a few months ago, and enjoyed 2 free souvlaki dinners at the Olympic. Boy, were they good! We both ordered them as mixed chicken and beef, and there was enough food to feed an army! Needless to say we brought lots home, and I am pleased to have healthy, hearty, high protein food left over for a couple of “quickies.”

We also stocked up on some decent meats and such, and are beginning to look ahead to more normalcy and better eating habits. I feel heartened by this and am eager to get back on track. Eating poorly can bring momentary pleasure and a sense of snful indulgence, but even more than in the past, it makes me feel badly both mentally and physically, and is clearly not worth it despite my tongue in cheek reference to the “enjoyment” of it all. In fact, I feel somewhat better than I did all week, already, although this may be both because I am off work once again, and because I have psyched myself back into feeling more in control.

Speaking of which, today Tom and I are going back to the casino for New Year’s Eve dinner and festivities. Perhaps we are crazy (well, for sure we are crazy, but that’s another story!), but we are gonna try to milk them again and enjoy another day of R & R there. In past years, they have had lobster dainties at the buffet for New Year’s Eve., and it will be interesting if they have such a special treat again tonight. These, I can and will eat, plus crab legs and other more typical yummies!

So…there  you have things from this end. Some of the same and some more optimistic - but however you look at it, I’m no saint, but at least I’m still trying!

(Oh, and completely unrelated, Tom just told me that the episode of Extreme Home Makeover that was filmed in Buffalo, is slated to air on January 3rd! Perhaps you’ll catch a glimpse of us, bedraggled, weary, thirsty, hungry yet still cheering in the “audience” if you tune in! You know that we’ll be watching!)