Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 216.2 lbs.

Before I confess my “worst fear,” I’ve gotta ask what’s up with the listing of how much weight I lost since last week?! Lest anyone think it was my sick humor or idea to post my weight loss to a zillionth of a percentage, I am just as shocked as you may be by this. I mean it even takes up two lines! (The computer does the math and fills this area in after I simply note my weight in a special box behind the scenes.) If I were less computer illiterate and had any sense as to how to fix this, I would. I can only hope that my brother, this site’s administrator, knows what to do, or I fear that all my future weights will register similarily. On the other hand, I guess it can’t hurt to know my weight loss to such a minute percentage just in case I ever lose so little that this may become relevent!

Now, let me refer to the kind of day I had at work yesterday to set the stage for the kind of evening I then proceeded on to. Horrible, frustrating, exhausting and demoralizing are adjectives that come to mind. I worked like a dog non stop and just got further behind, only to be warned in my evening supervision that we may be switching over to a new reimbursement model whereby counselors would no longer be paid for more than an hour of paperwork and other duties per day. Salary would be based solely on contact with clients instead. meaning, that days like yesterday would kill my stats and my paycheck, and basically, I couldn’t survive in this position on days (most) where demands of types other than direct contact were great.

Anyway, I came home at 7:30, spent and starving as other than a handful of nuts I scarfed up lest I pass out about 6 pm., I had no time to eat all day. And guess what I came home to?! Well, remember my somewhat joking yet worry about this site being referenced in the “The Complete Idiot’s Guide to Eating Well After Weight loss Surgery.” I said that I feared that if indeed Necessarymutilation was in the appendix, that I would be cited as an example of who not to emulate.

Well, I was, kind of. Here’s what it said under “Websites and Blogs” in the appendix: “Some of the blogs listed here are personal blogs, and some are more professional. Not all these bloggers always follow the rules your surgical center may provide you with, and some of these folks may not be the best examples. But you might find their sites to be useful, so we’ve included them here.”

NM is one of only 10 listed, and obesityhelp, melting mama, weightlosssurgerychannel and other known and healthy and legitimate sites, including the author of the books site, comprise the rest. You tell me who’s not “the best example”?!

Echhh..! Incorrect, I suppose not. Shocking, not really. Hard to hear, yeah! Sad but true, I guess so. The good news is that I suppose I’m now “famous” for something. The bad news of course, is what. Or, perhaps this is really a compliment about the gritty, honest, realistic and controversial nature of not just my blog, but the underbelly of the beast!!

What do you think?!