Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 220 lbs.

Well, right after I wrote yesterday’s entry, I called the psychiatric center to check up on Kris, with my usual heavy heart. Only to find that they have again put her on Clozapine, and she is coming back around! They said that she has been doing well for about 3 weeks, for which I got angry and asked why they hadn’t said any of this in our last telephone conversation (or god forbid, called us!) about 2 or 3 weeks ago. I wasn’t even aware that they were reconsidering her for clozapine, given her negative medical history with this medication.

In any event, she is now able to be visited once again, and I was told that if she continues to flourish, that we may be even able to take her out for Christmas!

This is such good news, although I am somewhat apprehensive about how she will respond to us given that we haven’t seen or talked to her in so long and she always has such difficulty understanding when there are gaps in our contact - even when these are not “our fault.” We do plan to visit on Thanksgiving morning, and this will truly be something to be grateful for!

Today I have started the days back off with a good workout, and am rarin’ to go. Yesterday I ended up running the town looking for new laptops, as well as visiting a bookstore that is going out of business and has everything listed at 75% off. My idea of heaven!!

Last night Tom and I went to the casino where we won $148.75 on the $160 free dollars they gave us to play with. Not too bad of odds! We also ate in the lounge, where I had 2 bowls of chicken soup, some cheese, some pieces of fruit (pineapple, melon and grapes), and even a little piece of supposedly sugar free cake. Fortunately, today I weigh the same, as it is the end/start of my weigh week and finally, I am posting a little bit of a loss. Tomorrow I will begin using the new scale exclusively, and I will be pleased to be able to note weights to the tenth of a pound hereafter. This should help me to keep better track as well.

Well, today I am off to a long day of work - but I surely can’t complain as this is only a 2 day work week for me! I will definitely need to build my days and hours up in the new year!

But, for now, I am content fussing for the holidays…and although this represents a little more work, am delighted that we will need to take some time to wrap Kris’ gifts after all!