Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 223.5

Well, as sort of expected, I didn’t post a weight loss for this week. Average wise I HAVE gone down, and this is why I like going by averages instead of what I happen to weigh on a Tuesday morning. Especially since Monday’s are buffet days at the casino now!

We did go there last night, and came home exactly $117.50 to the good. Not an earth shattering amount, but hey, its gravy money for us!

Speaking of gravy, I did eat a substantial amount at the buffet, and rather regretted it afterwards. I had shrimp cocktail, a half a bbq chicken breast, some chicken soup (there’s is very meaty and hearty!), cooked carrots, 2 chicken wings slathered in sauce, and a few pieces of peppered beef dish. I also had a few bites of corn, and then worst of all, a tiny bowl of ice cream with a small piece of suger free cake, for “dessert.” I don’t usually even let myself look at the dessert table, so I’m really not sure what got into me. Plus, I wasn’t even hungry anymore and if I had been, I had anticipated eating a few crab legs instead. I was dissappointed in myself for the quantity and quality of my choices, and again, feel as if I have strayed some lately and need to work harder with myself to “focus.”

This I do expect I can do better today, as it is gearing up to be an ordinary and “easy” Tuesday. Other than the fact that I have already been forewarned that flu clinic at work means that I will be kicked out of my office and put elsewhere for the day, it shouldn’t be too long or hard there and I may even have time to eat a decent snack at work, and a good dinner at home. And, I definitely plan to work out today, which I will do after writing this and after Tom has headed off to work so he doesn’t feel the need to oversee my progress. It is now only 6:00 am (what the heck am I up this early and blogging for?!), so the day is young and has promise!

In other news, just after I posted yesterday, the clinic director called from the job I am interested in, and asked me to return on Friday morning to meet (again!) with him, the woman who also interviewed me, AND the head guy, “just as a formality.” He asked if I was still interested, and I said that it was contingent on my terms being met and he said that we would discuss these more on Friday. He sounded casual and hopefully, this means that they have already acknoweledged my request and plan to accomodate. I guess that we’ll see on Friday - leaving me once again in a state of limbo and anxiety, although less so than before. I am also no longer quite as nervous as I had been, and have resigned myself more to the inevitable and am more at peace with it all. Although this may all change when faced with the realities involved once Friday’s meeting has possibly cinched the deal!

So, there you have it…a record early posting yet full of news and grit!  Let’s hope I’m as productive and focused at work and self care today, as well!