Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 228.5 lbs.

I realized when I woke up this morning that today may be one of my last leisurely weekends before, if I get it,  a new job. Just the thought of this makes me nervous, and I think that I will probably feel a little freaked out by a new schedule, routine, responsibilities and people for some time to come. I applied and got the call from the supervisor there so easily and comfortably, that I hadn’t really thought through to the fact that “Cripes! I may be working a whole new, second job soon!”

Hopefully I won’t resort to nervous eating, as I have been so known to do in the past. Last night I ate just a moderate amount of pizza, and left most of the crust. I am proving to myself that I can eat from a variety of menu items, but keep portions small and choices somewhat healthy. I hope that I’m not deluding myself in this belief. So far, although not a fast loser, I have continued to go down slowly and somewhat steadily, while still enjoying the richness of an everyday diet and the normalcy of eating out and partaking in whatever is served, for the most part. I THINK that this is what the doctor meant by “this isn’t supposed to be a diet, but a lifestyle”, and what should sustain me in a realistic and doable way, in the long run. I hope, anyway.

I definitely don’t want to have my eating habits to fret over while I am busy fretting about extra responsibilities, and hope that I am far enough along with this process that I can operate on automatic pilot and without significant forethought about every bite I eat. This all sounds too exhauting and distracting, especially right now.

Tonight, Debbie is due over, and we plan to eat out at a Greek restaurant. I love souvlaki and other Greek foods, and find that this type of restaurant is one of the easiest to order a hearty and healthy meal at. I am already salivating at the thought! So far today, I’ve only had a cheese and turkey slice sandwich (extra fiber, whole wheat) eaten in 2 halves between breakfast and lunch, and a banana. This all satisfied and filled me at the time, but I will soon be ready for a nice dinner!

Earlier, Tom and I went to several estate and garage sales, and bought our usual assortment of stuff. I was very excited to buy many boxes od plastic and paper plates and cups and zillions of napkins representing all holidays and events, for only $20. If bought in a store, this amount of Solo type products would cost hundreds, and we will be sure to use them not just for everyday situations (we feed our cats on paper plates every day), but for every bbq, holiday, birthday and other event from now until doomsday. I even plan to bring much of it to work, and I am sure that many of my clients will delight in holiday themed cups for when they prepare themselves coffee or tea before our sessions together.

Alright, maybe I’m a dork, but I do get off on bargains like this! Although it does make shopping in “real” stores that much more difficult. Just about ANYTHING can be found at garage and especially estate sales. Yesterday, Tom was thrilled to find a Black and Decker edger and trimmer for minimal money, and he admits that the bug has bitten him now too.

The only other (good!) news to report, is that the bank FINALLY came through, and we have been reissued our “stolen” money, hopefully for good. Just in time for Tom’s huge life insurance bill and other “fun” expenditures! Perhaps if we cut down on our garage saling we’d be better off, but, nah! I just hope working two jobs (if I get this one) won’t interfere with this aspect of my social life! (Or my friends, or metal detecting or chinese auctions or this blog! Agh!)