Necessary Mutilation

Weight: 241.5 lbs.

Today I don’t even care what I weigh, as I have bigger fish to fry (mmm…fish fry! Yum!).

I am sad and upset with myself after a long talk with my supervisor at work, and I am appreciating in a new and exciting way just how f***ed up I am to have (over-) reacted to recent issues there — and the position that this has left others and myself in as a result. I amaze even myself how passionately I may react to certain things without regard to rules or boundaries at times, and how these tend to be thematic to issues of territoriality, trust, and feelings of responsibility. I learned that I am not good at trusting or believing in others to step up to the plate on issues of importance, and that anxiety and stress especially trigger me into a “fight” pattern in which I assume I must attempt to protect or solve, as I don’t believe than anyone else can or will.

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