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Weight: 277 lbs.
There seems to be a theme of stupid food choices in my life this weekend and, given the title of today’s entry, you’ve probably already guessed the punchline.
But, before I grouse about eating too much or the wrong things, I need to complain about the nasty swelling and pain I am having where the groshong was removed. I have noticed that I continue to have marble-sized nodules in my neck and, last night, that my chest area was also hard, swollen, and painful where the catheter had been removed. Plus, the dime-sized sore where the vena cava filter was supposedly installed in my neck was bulging and swollen as if being pushed out by the marbly swelling behind it.
Continue reading “Barfing for Beginners II”
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Weight: 277 lbs.
Well, there’s always the first time for a good upchuck. Mine came during a church fundraiser where Tom, Zoe, Dennis, and I enjoyed the requisite chicken barbeque. It didn’t take me but a few bites to realize the error of my ways, and I barely made it into the bathroom in time to very purposely attempt to get it just as quickly out of me. I had that horrible stuck, overly full, nauseated, puke-o feeling that made me know that only one solution existed. I felt like a fat bulimic and hoped no one came into the bathroom or heard me through the doors as I did what I must.
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Weight: 278 lbs.
Today was an uneventful day and will likely finish off equally boring. Our friend Debbie is due over for a dinner out, and tomorrow I will post on what and where I ate. But, for today, I thought I’d write something different, yet as important and relevant as it gets when your whole world has been changed in such big ways.
Continue reading “My Better Half”
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Weight: 278 lbs.
Hey, I actually lost 1.5 pounds! I had given up hope for losing any more than a pound at any one time, so this is pretty thrilling to me! I wonder if the groshong weighed a lot?
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Weight: 279.5 lbs.
Well, I faced my worst fears after a partly sleepless night fretting about today’s removal of my groshong. I made the very stupid mistake of looking up “groshong catheter removal” on line late last night, in hopes of finding an encouraging article about this. Instead, I read a woman’s horrifying account of grossness and agony. When I joined Tom in bed and told him what I had done, nothing he could say eased my anxiety, and he got mad at me for researching the subject in the first place.
Somehow this morning I was a little more centered about it, and headed off with a tight grip on my Valium.
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Weight: 281 lbs.
Well, I just got back from my first real support group meeting at the Bariatric Center, and it was very informative and helpful. Tom and I met some nice people, and I learned that others struggle in similar ways as I do with controlling portions and appetite. I especially enjoyed talking with a woman who had surgery the same day as I did, and who at the time I considered a maniac because while I was bed-ridden in pain and looking like I’d just given birth to quadruplets, she could be seen practically running the halls and looking fresh as a daisy. Well today, she continues to look healthy and perky, but acknowledged that like me, she can seem to eat nearly ANYTHING, and has difficulty knowing when to stop. Also like me, the doctor gave her carte blanche to eat whatever she could tolerate, and didn’t mention any particular limits on this. Like me, she also wishes to have lost more, and seems to wonder if she has been losing on par with others.
Continue reading “Food for Fitness, Fuel, and Fun”
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Weight: 281 lbs.
So, yesterday Tom and I spent countless hours at the casino with our friends, Barb and Rick, as had been planned and looked forward to for some time.
As is typical, gambling-wise, we won, and lost, and won, and lost, and lost. And lost.
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Weight: 280 lbs.
My first simple pleasure is the incredible feeling of having lost another pound, despite yesterday’s hedonistic indulgences! I will try hard to remember that the stall of about a week ago was in fact only a discouragingly temporary state, and that indeed, there is life after “plateau.” I know that this is a common concern and subject in support group circles, and I hope anyone reading here and noting my daily weigh in results, will take heart from me. Hell, I hope that I will take heart from me the next time I find myself stalled!
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Weight: 281 lbs.
Woo hoo - thankfully I DID lose since yesterday and now am no longer having to see an old, painful number that reminds me of past struggles (see yesterday’s entry).
Given what I’ve eaten today however, I will probably gain back UP to 282 by tomorrow!
After a hearty breakfast of oatmeal (with peanut butter), and a lunch of chicken salad in a can, our friends Janet and Sally came over for a barbeque dinner and we used our new grill to cook up some Sahlen’s hotdogs.
Unable to resist, I actually ate a WHOLE HOT DOG (without the bun, at least), a little baked beans, AND some pea soup! And I didn’t barf or even feel that full … that is, until like 10 minutes later when I thought I was gonna die!
I clearly need to learn to eat slower and pace myself, and let the feeling of fullness come over me before I keep shoveling it in. I wish my brain, or stomach, or whatever, was a little quicker on the uptake!
In any case, I then went on a few hours later, to eat a bowl of cut up strawberries with diet whipped cream (our guests had it on angel food cake), and my first cup of coffee (decaf) since the surgery.
Mmmmm, mmmmm … too good, and now I feel regret and remorse and worry that I ate too much.
It is SO hard to judge such things now, whereas probably before surgery, I would have considered this a great diet. And, if I was strictly counting calories, I don’t think that I actually had THAT many today….
God, I think I need a dietician 24/7!
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Weight: 282 lbs.
Well, I lost another pound! Although this is technically good news, I must admit that I am freaked out to have landed on this number. It so happens that 282 is what I weighed at what used to be my all-time high like 10 years ago, when I went on what was to be my longest and most “successful” diet. In approx. 1999/2000 I had had it with myself, went out and bought Atkins’ book, and became an instant devotee. All told, I lost 100 pounds spanning about a 14-month period, and was married soon after. Life was good until (of course) the weight began to creep back on as I reintroduced carbs … and before I knew it, it was 2009 and I was at an even higher high weight. Ackkk!
Continue reading “Planes, Plans, and Plants”
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