Necessary Mutilation

I find myself still upset from yesterday’s unnecessary trials and tribulations, and have to make a conscious effort to recenter myself.  Especially as these are my “final” days of work and it is important I stay focused, catch up, and prepare carefully for my long absence. I also need to be most emotionally present for the clients I feel I am abandoning, and I take pains to ensure healthy transitions from me to my colleagues or whatever is the chosen plan.  There feels to be so much to do here and at home, I feel overwhelmed and most sluggish just when I need to push.  I believe so much emotional energy has been drained dealing with so many factors (some necessary, some not) that I am so wearied by the process of getting here , that the surgery itself will likely be anti-climactic.  Hey – maybe, like with childbirth, that’s the plan?!