07 March 2009 «Necessary Mutilation

So Many Options, So Little Stamina

I find myself turning down activities that might be strenuous or physically taxing - thereby limiting my opportunities more and more. Today was a Home Show I had looked forward to on one hand and dreaded on the other. I had a feeling that as the day of it approached I would find the thought of walking around the Convention Center too much to bear, but hoped my will would prevail.

Well - it didn’t and I bagged (though I hadn’t planned this with anyone other than Tom, just for this reason). Of course he could really care less, but for me, it is another sign of defeat and resignation and how my life has noticeably shrunk.

I am so glad to be writing this now, so I can reflect back later — hopefully at a time of renewed energy, stamina, strength, and spirit.

Oh God, please…

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