Necessary Mutilation

I’m doing my best to keep the lines of communication open with Tom about all aspects of this process and how it may (and already does) affect him.  Although typically he tends to be the more open, extraverted, and needy of the two of us, he has been somewhat uncharacteristically quiet in the face of my decision (I think he secretly believes I won’t go through with it), and some attempts I make to engage him in discussion about it fall short of my idea of dialogue.

This is a difficult time for me because I don’t want to obsess about myself or this process and especially any worrisome aspects that may be involved, yet I want to ensure that we are a team, he is all right, and our relationship remains strong.

It’s a delicate process and I expect it’ll unfold and develop in its own way and time and, with due diligence, we’ll be OK – and he (who does occasionally refer to feeling “a wreck” about it) will also be OK.  I hope.